I’m currently in the library thinking.
I know I should be studying but I can’t. My mind is almost in a fog of sorts. This hasn’t been the best week and a lot of it is my own doing. There are moments in life, I know for me, when I feel like I am better than I actually am. I start doing things well and my head swells to a point of no return, threatening to burst with any sudden movement. Then there are times, like this week, where I fail and fail and don’t live up to the standards that I have for myself. That sucks, you know, but it humbles me. It’s during these trials that I realize that I am not as good as I try to pretend I am, especially without God. I make it a point not to parade around presenting something that is false and arrogant but I am human and I fall prey to its trap as much as the next person. And when I come to my senses it’s usually during a hardship or a failure that I have had that forces me to look back into the mirror I once used to uplift myself to now see what really lies underneath all the fluff. I am thankful though because each trial and failure leads to more growth and more experience.
Why I titled this blog post is because I recently, well yesterday, went to a Bible study about compassion. That’s a tricky thing, but one quote that I absolutely love is: “everyone is fighting a hard battle” by Plato. Great quote but I like the way it is painted here:
It helps me become aware of the fact that everyone is going through something, much like I do when I seemingly hit rock bottom. And so even when times are tough I must, no I need to stay compassionate to myself when I fail and to others when I feel like I am at my wit’s end.
Keep pushing and finding what inspires you on this journey of life.